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Ob Sie denken, dass Sie es können,
oder ob Sie denken, dass Sie es nicht können -
in beiden Fällen haben Sie Recht...

Whether you think that you can
or that you can't
you are usually right.

Henry Ford

again not stable

where are relationships developing to?
can relationships be a stable thing?
i don't think so, life is a constantly moving state
so why should relationships be

relationships are never defenite
you can move them up and down
you can keep contact up or down
and you can do this anytime you like

only the mirror can show you the color of your eyes

i want to see my own eyes in reality!

communication blockade...

i am not able to express all my thoughts through language
i need an universal way of communication that lets me place a thought into anothers mind
toghether with all the experiences that shaped my attitude
to give the other one exactly the same view of things that i have

randomphotoproject... expanding on bank notes

i will print photos of my collection
and write some words on the back
maybe i'll also mention a way to contact me
then i'll leave them on public places
trains, busses, stations, cafes, concerts,...
and maybe... someone will find it...
and be pleased about it... or hate it...
i wanna create a feeling in a person i don't know

my other idea was about bank notes
recently my mother got a 5 euro note
that had the words
"save me" "spend me" and a date
stamped on it
so i thought about spreading a message through money
to use this tool that is controlling humanity
for my goals and ideas i want to spread
and the thought of beating them at "their" own game
and it is again about creating a feeling in someone
and the possibility to once get back one of these bank notes
how small the world is...

the ice is melting...

the higher you climb... the deeper you fall

i try to climb... and to make a net... at the level i am now...

the route to go... to have it, yo!

again again... the feeling of being insecure caused a series of things i didn't wanted to happen... and apologizing also feels strange... only trying-to-be-understandable explaining is somehow a way out... gah... but away now...

today my second prom this year... and me a bit protesting against the clothing regulation... not coming around with a silk dress... dunno if i'll feel comfortable there, even with my comfortable outfit... maybe the last prom for a long time... except my own graduating prom of course... or hm... skipping that one would also have charm...

why didn't i go there?

am i creating a world that can only disappoint me? is this little second reality a house of glass? where am i moving? this little second seems like the eternal moment... gah... where has the enthusiasm gone? again expectations... synthetically created expectations...

i wanna go to a cosy, warm and light place... with you...

the same way...

If I undressed you in the day, would you still act the same way that you did in the dark?
Maybe we could save time that way. Maybe we could be done by nine.

If I just left you in the park, would you still walk home the same way like we did last year?
Or would you try to save time on the way home if I wasn't here?

All the dust I swept away yesterday just returns as I stare.
And one neighbor, he looks away as I walk by. Like you, he learns I'm not there.

On the drive out to the store, I trace your name out three times with my finger on my knee.
I pretend you sit beside me as we drive towards a day at the beach.

But all the rust on this old car falls away in the rain as I stare. I hear you say I have to change.
I can not change. Of course I turn and you're not there.

humans think out of the box?

all of our doing is just a mixture
our crazy little brains made of
what we perceive from around us
what we know because we experienced it and
what we know because someone told it to us
and maybe a bit of instinct...

little childrens eyes

is this freedom?

now i am not dependent on anyone... depending webspace... whatever will come around...
this is the new era... heij i like this!