wall of glass

you gave the rules and i followed
but i no more do
your black is now my white
my white feels better than your black

i'm improving my way not yours
i feel a wall of glass between us
i can see you but not reach you
don't want to reach you

the glass separates the past from the present
i can see what was back then
but it's not a part of now anymore

at first a thin breakable layer
and it did break at times
sometimes smashed to the fullest
when memories raced through with 200 miles per hour

then reconstruction had to be done
that took some time
i had to invent new ways of building

but now it's getting solid
with fewer holes and leaks
the wall of glass

maybe one day it will be solid, really solid
so solid you would need a tank to break through
but then i'll be ready for your troops
standing there, awaiting you
with a white flag

written: March 2, 2011